I'm very confused with myself now... I dno wad am i doing, how do i feel, and wad i want...

I tot i'm right, but sometimes my family come n tell me that it is not that simple, and there are more for me to do n discover.... Until now my sister is stil talking about the Charity Concert... At first i told her i did my very best and all... ( I kno if im a more detail person, i can do better). But my sister told me something, i should start learning from the basic and train my members from the basic before letting them to handle charity concert... she told me alot of things.. Of course she is right, it is always easier to say than do. I shared my experiences with my incomings but i dont see them taking my words seriously... I seriously want them to learn.. maybe they wont realise until they experience it.. MOstly importantly i learnt and i wil definately do better in future...

Last week kor came back,

my sis said： 她（是指我）做事都不用心的。

Then kor said : 错！ 她是一个很用心的leader, 可是她不会把她的用心传给其他人。

My bro really understands me... I do things with passion, but others dont feel the same as me... haih... When he said that, i was reli surprise because i din kno that he look high on me... I always do not know how my 2nd bro luk on me.. But i kno he always want me to realise things... I really appreciate kor, he always gives me practical opinion, show me the real world and share his experiences with me, tells me how to do things better, he trained me to become a more mature person, see more things than others. then, i asked him, how to let others feel my passion and sincerity? he said, thats another level for a leader to achieve...

Im really grateful that i have 3 much more elder siblings because they are all living in the society, faced diff people and diff situations before.. I always miss them because they are not always by my side when i reli reli need them.. but thanks kor, when i nid ur opinion, i wil always sms u and u wil rpy me no matter how late it is... I just cant afford to lose them, they are the ones who really treat me sincerely and let me feel the love... I really hope that one day we can all stay together and live together... I feel very lost without you guys.. Whenever i have problems, i dno who to tell and in the end i wil feel lost... When u come back, i dno hw to tell because I dont use to tell you my things.. The time i live with you guys are very short, my eldest bro leaved me when i was 7 years old to study abroad, slowly one by one go sg and now im alone here leaving with my parents.. I kno my parents miss them alot too...

We must always show love to each other before it is too late... sometimes u may feel ur siblings are annoying or wad, but when they leave you, you will realise how important they are and how much you need them.. Treat them sincerely because they are ur family and nobody else kno u better than them...

I think my 2nd bro realise our problems too, but just dno wad to do...